Do you know what it’s like to live in the mundane?
I think we all pretty much know what it’s like living in the mundane.
When it feels like you’re in a constant cycle every day.
You know how you’re going to feel tomorrow because it’s all the same, it’s the same schedule, the same monotony.
It happens… if you go to school, go to work, maybe do anything.
We can’t help ourselves from living in the mundane. That’s just life.
But trying to get away from the mundane and try new things is a different story.
But if you’re like me trying new things… just doesn’t work out for the best.
And that’s what I want to talk about.
Trying new things… and having it eventually lead to failure and the realization that I’m in the mundane for a reason.
This post will not be about how you should stop trying new things. I just want to share my experiences of trying new things.
So every now and again when I’m painstakingly bored I will try new things to put myself in a better mood. 6 times out of 10, the reason why I try new things is that I’m in a not so good mood and I want to see if maybe a new opportunity will help.
And then the outcome is…
Well, it’s crap to summarize it nicely.
And this happens whenever I try to escape from the mundane. I mean not every experience is like this but that’s what it kind of feels like.
And I don’t know if it’s life throwing rocks at me or if it’s just me giving up before it gets good.
Because if I don’t feel like I’m going to enjoy something I won’t continue it to the end. Why would I? I don’t need something else bringing my mood down.
If it makes me feel anxious, depressed, etc. I stop.
And is it because life is out to get me or my ability to handle things spectrum?
Do I think life wants me to try new things?
At this rate, no.
Do I want to keep trying new things?
Yeah, of course!
But most times, it feels like my fantasy of that new opportunity is better than the opportunity itself.
Does anyone know how that feels?
Is it just me?
I don’t know… all I know is the mundane is weird.
I want it to leave, but it doesn’t want me to leave. Or it shows me that I shouldn’t leave and I should just stop trying at these new opportunities.
Which I won’t do.
But it just makes me wonder,
when is that huge thing that comes at the beginning of a movie and changes the main character’s life as they know it?
Does that exist?