I’m so sick of this same routine.
I’m sick of experiencing the exact same ups and downs.
I get that life is full of ups and downs.
But it’s the same downs.
It’s the same thing every time.
You’d think I would get used to it.
But I’m not.
It gets worse every time and everything adds up.
Then I go through some ups.
And I fool myself.
I think that life will get better and maybe everything will be okay.
And just as I start to think that another down comes my way.
And it’s the same thing over and over again.
And I’m sick.
I’m on a roller coaster.
I hate roller coasters.
Absolutely hate them.
My friends always wanted me to go with them on one.
But I hated them.
They always made me sick, physically. They gave me headaches and I vomited sometimes.
These fake ups and downs are making me sick, mentally and emotionally.
This is a roller coaster that I can’t get off of.
And that drives me crazy.
Let me off this ride.