I didn’t sign up for this.
I knew this was coming.
But when did the time go away so fast?
My parents used to do everything for me.
They used to make all my decisions for me.
They were the ones who had to send emails when I had questions.
But now I actually have to send emails to the school administration.
And I’m scared.
I want my parents to do that.
I don’t even know if I want to take college courses.
That’s when everything will become real.
I mean it’s already all real.
My dad keeps asking me if I want to take the test to get my permit.
And what if I’m a bad driver?
Can I even handle that much control?
I’m scared of responsibility.
I’m scared to fly away from my parents’ nest.
I thought this was what I wanted.
To get a bit of freedom.
To be able to be seen as a young adult.
But I’m scared now.
I’m scared to take control of my life.
I’m scared to get a job.
To get an internship.
I’m scared to take the test for my permit.
I’m scared to grow up.
I’m scared to fly on my own.