Happy Birthday Hopelesslystrong!
(So this post was supposed to be published yesterday, but my smart self actually scheduled it to 2 months ago? I don’t even know how? But this is for May 19, 2016. Great Job, Rebecca lol)
You’re the reason that I’m strong and I’m appreciative of the person that I am today.
You’ve helped me grow and find myself and realize so many things that are important in this life.
Without you I don’t know where I would be.
If you’re wondering, yes I’m talking to my own blog in 2rd person.
Because it’s officially been one complete year since I started this blog!
May 19, 2015 was a huge day for me even if I didn’t realize it was.
It’s the day that I wanted to vent out my feelings, and not be judged for it.
When I started this blog I remember that I wanted to be anonymous. I didn’t really want to share my name or my age. I just wanted to express my feelings, with no one actually knowing who I am.
But that’s changed.
I’ve shared my name here, I’ve changed since the beginning.
I think at the beginning I was afraid that someone I know would find this blog. That scared me. Because it’s like someone who knows me can actually judge me, because they know who I am. I don’t know how I would feel if someone that I knew found this blog. I don’t even know if that’s a possibility. Because most of the people that I know are more in the social media world than the writing world.
Would they even know it was me?
Lol the first time I wrote about the guy I always talk about I thought somehow he would find that post AND find all the posts concerning him. I was that scared.
I think I grew comfortable here.
That’s why I shared my name.
And I expressed subjects I wanted to keep locked away.
I shared them because I’m comfortable.
I found my save haven, my shelter, my secret hiding place, I found happiness.
It’s really scary thinking of what would’ve happened if I never found this place.
Going over everything I’ve been through the past few months, I can’t even begin to comprehend what would’ve happened if I kept it all inside.
But thankfully, I don’t have to. I get to express my feelings. I get to publicize my writing. I get to talk about my boring day.
I get to have an opportunity and I’m so thankful for that.
Being here, I’ve learned things that I didn’t even know about myself.
I’ve met the most amazing people here, who are so sweet and give the best advice.
Thank you, to whoever I might be talking to, thank you for making this environment such a peaceful one, where I don’t have to be scared to write my opinion. Thank you for not judging me. Thank you for making this place feel safe and comforting.
Since I’ve been here I have learned….
- How to remain strong
- How to not be afraid of the person I’m becoming
- To accept the fact that my asthma and anxiety are a part of me
- To be appreciative of the downs in my life
- Change isn’t bad, it makes our stories complete
- The true meaning of the words Hope, Faith, Change, Strong, Happiness
- That I don’t need a guy to be complete all I need is me
- To care about my mental being first, love the person I’m staring at in the mirror
- To never keep my feelings bottled up
- To stand up for what I believe in
And so many other things.
So here’s to 179 posts and hopefully many, many more in the future!
Thank you to everyone who’s been there for me, those liked more posts than I could count, I know who you are and I appreciate you so much! Thank you for holding my hand while I’m on my roller coaster of life.
Look over your past year and see how much you’ve changed since your first post, believe me, it’ll blow your mind how much you’ve grown. And to the new bloggers out there, I hope you enjoy this place, it really is lovely here.
I can’t believe it’s only been a year.
Starting this blog, by far, has been one of the best decisions I’ve made.
If you’ve seen my blog you know that one of the most important things in my life is staying strong and being strong.
This is my life motto: Stay Strong.
It’s helped me through so many rough patches.
It’s made me who I am.
Thank you Hopelesslystrong, without you I don’t know where I would be.