Songwriting.
Growing up, I thought I didn’t have a talent.
Some kids were athletes, some could draw… what could I do?
Was I given a gift?
Was I just going to be a girl who would become whatever her parents told her to be?
Songwriting was my gateway to this whole world of dreams.
Songwriting is where it began for me.
I didn’t only further a greater passion in songwriting, I got a greater passion for writing, photography, music, and so many other things.
But songwriting is where it started for me. It’s when I started to believe in myself, when I started to believe in dreams. And not the dreams that come to you when you’re asleep, actual dreams.
It started in 8th grade. I went to a private school, so there were only maybe 200 kids. There were 20 kids in each grade. So you could be “someone” in this school.
We were going to have a Thanksgiving program and our class didn’t start planning what we were going to do. The 5th graders played a certain song while doing arm movements. The 6th grade read poems… etc. And my teacher said something along the lines of… if anyone has an idea for what we could do, like acting out a story, reading poems, writing a song. When she said writing a song, I s.w.e.a.r. she looked at me, because I wrote a paper about songwriting. But I don’t think she read it. So I’m not actually sure she knew I could write a song. But my friends knew, they were the only people who knew I could write songs. They told me I should do it, I should write a song.
Aghh, my heart is all jumpy writing this story, it was such a outgoing thing for me to do, anyway lol.
So… I took a chance. I don’t know how I did it. It usually takes me a few days or weeks to completely finish a song. But, I guess I had a lot of inspiration and motivation to write a song. The funny thing is, I didn’t even plan on writing the song. That day, after I came home, I was just like “Yeah, I’ll do my homework, eat, sleep.” But I finished my homework early and I got my songbook and I thought “Why not?” So I got to it. I just started writing some words and I had a song! All in one night. It surprises me even now.
So I go to school the next day, with my songbook in my backpack (just in case I would have enough courage to tell my teacher). I told my friends that I wrote a song in the morning, before we went to class. They were so excited for me, they were urging me to tell the teacher. My teacher stood up from her desk, walked to the middle of the room and said “Did anyone think of ideas for the program?” I waited a few seconds. Silence. It felt like years, but it was only 5 seconds. It was like her peripheral vision was looking at me, maybe I’m was just seeing these things, but I swear I saw her look at me. I finally said “I wrote a song.”
Her face lit up. “You wrote a song! Rebecca wrote a song!” My friends were so happy for me. They helped me not die from everyone’s eye contact. The teacher then preceded to read it in front of the class. I didn’t exactly feel embarrassment, I felt proud of myself. But to have all the attention on you, for someone who doesn’t get much attention is very overwhelming. I even remember actually saying that when everyone was staring at me. Thank goodness, we weren’t in assigned seats during this time. Because if my friends weren’t there sitting next to me I might’ve just sunken into a pool of overwheming-ness (Yes I know it isn’t a word, but I don’t know a better word for this situation than overwhelming) because of all the attention.
Everyone was so sweet to me, well the female rationale of our class. The male rationale couldn’t care less. In fact, the guys didn’t even want to sing the song, only the girls wanted to. I didn’t mind though, I just liked the fact that I could share a part of myself with others.
So we sang the song at the thanksgiving program and people actually came up to me to say such nice things. Like “I loved your song.” “It’s so wonderful that you can write songs.” It made me feel butterflies, it made me feel worthy.
Then one thing my teacher said to me after the program changed my life for the better. I don’t remember her exact words, because I don’t have a great memory. But she said something along the line of… songwriting is a real talent, I could actually become somebody, go somewhere with it.
That was it. That was THE moment. The moment I KNEW what I wanted to be, what my dreams consisted of.
My parents always told me that they dreamed of me becoming a doctor, I would always accept it, it didn’t really bother me before that moment. I would tell my friends “Yeah I’m gonna be a doctor, maybe a pediatrician.” But I didn’t really want to be a doctor, I just believed that it was my only option, because it’s all my parents talked about.
But after that moment. After it, and my parents mentioned me being a doctor, I became opinionated. I didn’t want to be one anymore, or feel the need to be one anymore. I wanted to follow my dreams. That’s when I started learning more about myself, and not the person people pushed me to be.
So I finally had a dream.
All thanks to songwriting, I don’t only want to write songs, but I wanna sing. But this post’s about writing songs lol, I’ll write about singing another time.
There’s just something else about songwriting.
It’s not like writing at all.
Songwriting takes careful consideration, writing does too. But you have to make sure you’re telling a story in your song. And that the story is concise throughout the whole song.
And you have to make sure the right words fit into the melody, if you have a melody. Sometimes you have a melody, sometimes you don’t.
But nothing is more fun and exhilarating than thinking of the lyrics AND the melody. It’s just so …, it’s a feeling I can’t even begin to describe.
I love songwriting. It’s like I’m giving others a piece of myself, but in a vague way.
I’m putting all this emotion into a song, I’m being vulnerable. But it’s okay, because it’s my story, it’s my song.
I like to think of the songs I write as a journey.
Lately, I’ve been writing more songs that speak about my journeys in life. For example, one of my best friend’s moving away, my mom’s mental disorder, him, just so many things. I’ve started writing more song about my experience, about my years. It’s like my songs are like my diary now.
Back when I was 7-13 years old I would just write songs about boys, even though I didn’t even know what the hell I was writing lol. Now, it’s more personal. I write more songs about my walks of life and not irrelevant boys.
Songwriting is just my way to vent my feelings.
I didn’t know how to incorporate guitar with my lyric writing. I thought it would take years for me to do that, but last year I just came up with a guitar tune and some words and… I had a song, my first song with a melody that I created!
So nowadays, I just start a random guitar pattern, and if I’m lucky it’ll make sense with my lyrics.
Songwriting has become my passion, it has become my dream. I want to share it with the world, but only once I’m ready. I don’t think I’m ready quite yet, but I will be.
I can do it. Because, I believe in myself, and believing in me is all I need.
«Music Friday»
- On Purpose by Sabrina Carpenter
I think that this is my most favorite post of yours 😁😁 I’m glad that you have a true passion/ gift cause I’m still trying to find mine😁 will you be sharing some of your songs with us? 😀
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Aw thank you! 🙂 I’m sure you’ll find yours really really soon! I’m not sure yet because I’m kind of anxious to share it, but I’ll think about it! 🙂
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Okay no problem 😁😁
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This was amazing! As someone who uses songwriting as an outlet to express myself I found this post so inspirational. xx
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Thank you! 🙂 You write songs too?
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Yep ahaha, it’s more of a hobby than a career I’d like to pursue though
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That’s cool 🙂 I read your lyrics post, your songwriting is really amazing! Don’t ever give it up 🙂 Can I ask you something, do you seem to have more unfinished songs than finished songs?
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Aw thanks! As for finished songs, for me the motivation to write comes in bursts, but in one day I’ll usually finish an entire song without trouble. It’s harder because I hear the music in my head and can’t lay it out but I know what it’s supposed to sound like. What about you?
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I don’t know, sometimes a song just comes in my mind and I write down the words. Or I wanna write about something particular and it just comes. Unless I’m really feeling the song and I’m motivated, I’ll finish it. But I admit, I have more unfinished songs than finished ones. That’s something I’m trying to work on lol
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Still awesome that you write! We all have different methods. Do you play any instruments?
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Well, I played clarinet and violin for a few years. Then 2 years ago I took a guitar class, and that’s what I still play. It sorta calls out to me lol 😛 What about you?
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None unfortunately, I’ve been begging for guitar lessons though so I think I might get those soon! I think it will really help with my song writing
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I hope you do get the lessons! Guitar is such a great instrument. Once you learn, you can just mess around with random chords and before you know it, you can have the melody to your song. It’s such an amazing feeling to figure out the melody to one of your songs! It really does help with the direction of the song 🙂
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That’s great! My friend plays a little and showed me some chords so I know how to play just those (Em, E, D, C) and it was really fun too. 😊
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Ahh those are the first few chords I learned to! With Em, D, C, and a G you can pretty much make up any tune, G isn’t that hard to do either. Most songs that artists sing can be played with Em, C, D, and G. Did your fingers kind of hurt after playing?
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Yeah they did, you could see the lines where the strings were pressing. My friend told me after a while you get used to it though and it doesnt hurt.
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Yep, it’s true. Your fingers will never go back to the way they wers, but that’s a good thing lol. I hope you enjoy playing guitar 🙂
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thanks! I know I will 🙂
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Do you think you’ll ever post one of your songs? 🙂 xx
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Hmmm idk. I’m kinda anxious and on edge that someone will steal my song. I was even worried that someone in my class was gonna steal my song lol, which is kind of ridiculous. But I’ll think about ittt! 🙂
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Aw haha, fair enough! I can imagine why someone would want to steal it (that sounds wrong…)! 🙂 xx
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Thanks for understanding Skye 🙂 But you’re not the only person who asked, and idk I just might someday, ya never know! 😛
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I like Sabrina Carpenter so much! And good job on songwriting, I really hope you’ll share it someday in the future 😊
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Her voice is so unique and lovely! Thank you! 🙂 I might! I’m still deciding, but my decision’s leaning towards yes, I’ll share it, but idk 😛
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Yay!!
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Nice one for finding your passion; keep it close to your heart. Being able to write songs is such a blessing, it strengthens the bond between us and our souls. But the road of inspiration can sometimes get awful bumpy!
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Thank you! Everything you said is so true!
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That’s so awesome that you found something you’re really passionate about! So many people in this world don’t know what they’re passion is yet.. I hope you keep writing your songs! Good luck!
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Thank you so much! 🙂 Some days I don’t have time to write songs, but I’m trying to work on it.
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Yes, it’s pretty hard to find the time and mental space to create something like that. But keep working! Even a few minutes a day helps. Good luck!
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Thank you!! I have to keep that in mind 🙂
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A lovely story of which certain parts resonate re: the actual creation of words and melody. Keep writing :-). A fellow songwriter.
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It’s so nice to hear such kind worse from another songwriter 🙂 thank you.
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I decided to write one myself today, thanks to reading yours :).
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Just to let you know instead of worse I meant to type words sorry! And that’s so amazing! Lately I’ve been writing more songs as well 🙂 It’s a great feeling to be able to say what’s on your mind in song
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Absolutely 🙂
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We should share our tunes sometime and share it :).
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That would be amazing! It would be great to get input from a fellow songwriter 🙂
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