Today hasn’t been one of my best days, unfortunately.
All I can think about are the people I love, and how they probably don’t love me.
I think of my friends, and how they would probably be better off without me.
I think of life, and how it’s been repeatedly giving me darkness.
I think of happiness, and how it’s a complete joke. I’m happy for a minute and then something has to come and take it away.
I’m just not feeling good today, mentally.
My mind has just been clogging my whole day from any happiness.
I keep thinking and thinking and overthinking of things I KNOW aren’t true, but my mind somehow manipulate me into believing that it’s true.
Of course, these thoughts have happened before, but it feels different.
I feel incomplete.
I see my friends, on their snapchat story, always having fun. Smiling. Enjoying life.
I see random people having the ability to live a carefree life without any worries or doubts.
I’m just really tired.
I hate bottling my feelings inside, I almost tried to stop myself from writing this. But, hiding my feelings will never help. It’ll just kill me inside.
I just want these thoughts to stop.
I want my mind to stop concluding that people aren’t texting me because they don’t love me and don’t have time for me.
I want to stop believing that I don’t deserve happiness and this hope is just going to be hopeless in the future.
I want to stop being my worst enemy.
I just want life to stop. I just need a break from my thoughts.