You know how in movies the main character always has that moment of darkness?
Everyone has given up on them that they want to give up themselves. They don’t see a point in trying anymore because it’s become useless.
They start to give in to the darkness of their emotions when something happens.
They become hopeful again and start to believe in themselves again.
It’s like a newfound sense of courage has kicked in.
And they can’t rest until they can redeem themselves and bring hope and light to the world again.
They no longer feel helpless.
I guess movies like this aren’t very reliable because life is more complex than this. You’re gonna have more than one hopeless moment in your life. That’s hard to stray away from.
Also, the main character is kind of “known for” being a badass and saving the world and being capable of saving it.
But in most of these movies, these characters have a “special power,” be it, magical or non-magical. They could have super strength, be a wizard, have something come out of their hands.
And it makes you feel like a little kid watching these movies because you want to be the one fighting your toughest battles with ice powers or speed. Because it’s so freaking cool.
And for a moment…
Just a mere moment, you believe in the impossible.
I’m not only talking about the impossibility (or possibility) of these powers.
I’m talking about the possibility of unfailing hope and utter happiness.
You believe for a moment that you’re capable of being brave like them too.
There’s this feeling of adrenaline rush after finishing a good movie where all is well at the end. Because it gives you hope.
It makes you feel capable of what the main character is doing, and that is making sure all is well at the end.
Nowadays, I’m just looking for that “special power,” I’m waiting for my beacon of hope.
Because sometimes it feels like I’m taking 2 steps forward and 5 steps back.
I want that moment of when something will change my life, my perspective. Not only for a night or a week. But for the rest of my life.
I don’t want to revert to the person I used to be anymore. I want to be safe in the present.
I want that breaking point of “I can do this because of …”
I want that moment in life where I accept being me and I know my purpose.
That’s my ultimate goal.