If you’re asking me to admit the truth;
Yes, your smile literally glued some of the broken pieces of my heart together and brought sun to the dark places of my heart.
Yes, your laugh was like my favorite song on repeat and if i was the one to make you do that? i wish i could do that for a long time.
Yes, i would’ve rested my head on your shoulder for a lifetime if it meant i got to be this close to you in the safety of your presence.
Yes, i would’ve spent so much time with you because it meant i got to see your face and talk to you for countless hours.
Yes, i would’ve let you go on and on about soccer because i know it’s your one true love and the way you talk about your one true passion leaves me in awe.
Yes, your actions always had me overthinking and were on a constant loop in my head.
Yes, your smell was one that welcomed all my senses that if someone were to spray the cologne you wear all i would think about would be you and how close we were to each other.
Yes, your sense of humor made me feel special that i hoped you never talked about “vampires and werewolves” (amongst other things) to anyone else as goofily as you talked about them to me.
Yes, you noticing me has to be one of the best feelings on the planet and i just wish i knew what you thought once you would see me.
Yes, i would’ve talked to you for hours because talking to you was unlike talking to someone else. i never found myself getting tired of your stories.
Yes, the way you held me had my heart beating in a way it’s never beat before… it scared me how you made it feel. i wonder at such a close proximity if you could hear it too?
Yes, your touch affected me in a way it was if my heart stopped and what was always seen as impossible became possible for a second.
Yes, our hang outs made me believe in a content future where just being in the moment with you would feel like enough for me.
Yes, i wanted to stay on the phone with you for countless hours either lending your ear for a story or listening to you talk for hours about your day.
Yes, i would’ve looked at you for days on end waiting for you to look back and flash your perfect smile.
Yes, i would’ve kept a constant eye connection with you but the way you looked at me… it was too much and it scared me so i had to turn away after a while.
Yes, whenever i saw you face to face and talked to you in person at school i would always come home with butterflies in my stomach and a non-erasable smile on my face.
Yes, your words left marks on my heart and every sweet and funny thing you’ve said to me— i can always think about it and it never ceases to make me smile. Even if i was mad at you.
Yes, whenever you would say something only read about in books my heart swelled and i got a little bit of hope that you felt the same way.
Yes, i used to daydream about you and us being happy together like any other sappy high school couple.
Yes, the thought of “us” (if an us ever existed) scared me but if you ever felt the same way about me? …i wouldn’t know what to do.
But this is probably the way you make her feel too.
and i was nothing to you.
so i fade away. with these memories as chains.